reached home after lunch with a bunch of frenz in LJS (angel, xinyi , xuan, ping, jingmin and two lamers)......slept for bout 2 hours after reachin home and slacked a couple of hours more.......hmmmm i guess im a little melodramatic today.....kinda thought through many things todae - about myself, my school work, my results, the 'O's, my plans and my future. Yeah, its kinda like a ME DAY - dedicated to my own life and how its gonna be. The most frightening thought that struck me was failing my O's...... sometimes i wonder if im just livin other peoples expectations rather than my own life. Weird. Most of the time we try so hard to be ourselves - THE REAL US...and pride in being able to be nothing but our good ol' self....but are we really being ourselves?....like it or not, many of us are actually tied down to the expectations of people around us....our friends, our family, the society and bla bla.....its a good thing no doubt, for possesing such a quality means you're sensitve to the feeling and needs of others but......where's the line?....and how much is too much?... read an article given by mrs loh the other day that said that some of the most interesting people in life dont even know where they're headed at the age of 40.....WOAH was my reaction.....even at the age of 16 i kinda have plans for wat i wanna be 20 years down the road.....so people at 40 without a goal in life seems to be Lost to me......but as i continued reading, it struck me that maybe they were interesting because they had no worries - no expectations to meet, no honour to uphold and better still, no need for the disappointment after every single failure in their lives. In short, they were truly living their lives to the fullest - taking obstacles, surprises and miracles in their stride and learn to stand up after every fall.....sounds profound ...doubt i can ever truly understand it at all....yeah i noe this is a long long entry but just felt like typing it out so dun worry...im fine..just needed some space to free my thoughts in this trustee blog of mine...
Reminder : For those with "Because Of U" lyrics in hand, dun forget to PRACTISE ~!! ^-^
wat a day! went mad in sch with my beloved class singing the community songs in RED shirts !!
6:33:00 PM
take off against the wind
